Health....

As I mentioned last week I had bronchitis, which was not ideal but did seem to pass fairly quickly. Well, I'm also prone to odd growths apparently. I have a keloid on my ear from a piercing I got when I was 17, I've had two surgeries and now it requires monthly injections of chemotherapy drug in order to shrink it. On top of this I've had a cyst on my neck for a little over a year. The cyst was small and I had it checked out by my doctor who was not concerned and told me if I wanted it removed it would be a simple procedure but since it was small and didn't bother me it was nothing to be concerned with. Well, ofcourse I couldn't leave it alone and allowed my waxer (whom I trust) mess with it. What started as a small bump grew to a large knot on my neck. It was so sore and swollen that I had to go to urgent care on Sunday where they drained it but would not remove it. I was then told to go to a Ear, Nose and Throat doctor because the cyst itself was next to my jugular, ofcourse! Mind you, if you don't remove the cyst itself it could come back.Well this morning I go to the ENT doctor and he tells me its too infected for him to do anything and reopened the wound. I don't handle doctors well, I never have. I cannot look at blood (myself or others) or any other bodily liquids without feeling nauseous and lightheaded. Well lately I've been shot up with needles, sliced open and 'packing' stuffed in an infected wound. I'm not handling this well.
I thought today I would go to the ENT they would remove the actual cyst and I would go on to healing this obnoxious and ugly wound on my neck. But no. Since he reopened it, it will continue to drain. I know I'm probably completely overreacting but I'm very frustrated by this. First of all its on my neck, and very obvious because I have to keep it covered, since its open. Second the packing the put in the wound is very uncomfortable and it makes it hard to sleep or get comfortable, which makes me irritable to say the least. And lastly, in my 27 years of life I've been fairly healthy so when I have to make multiple runs to a doctor I feel like I'm not in control of myself, which is a hard thing for me to deal with or accept. I was in tears this morning on the phone with Chris out of frustration. I want to be able to sleep,I want to not have to bandage my neck and not wear scarfs everyday!

::sigh::